A few talks from the TED conference for 2007, where some of our greatest minds have gotten together to discuss how we can improve our world :)
I realise some of these are old, and have done their rounds on the net, but theres some deep thoughts from smart people here and I think their worth sharing for those that missed them..

Stephen Petranek - 10 Ways the World could end
This one freaks me out a little, especially the particle accelerator mishap section. We keep snippets about these massive laboratories where they expect to create BLACK HOLES right here on earth. First time I heard that I flipped out, but only 2 of my circle of friends seemed to think there was any risk involved, the others just thought "neat" and immediatly forgot about it. We need somebody to watch over these experiments before a bunch of mad scientists kill us all!
Its not all doom and gloom though, this guy actually has some decent solutions to many of the problems. Worth the watch.

Will Wright - Toys that make worlds
This genius brought us some of the most innovative, deep games ever released, and I've been dying to get my hands on his latest baby Spore ever since I first heard about it almost 3 years ago now. This talk isn't strictly about the game itself, but it does show a lot of the elements involved, and how far the game has come since his last demonstration.

Daniel Gilbert - Why Are We Happy? Or Not?
Some interesting views and studies on what makes people happy. Or what makes people decide that they think they're happy. Or something.
This one is mainly aimed at Mr Hapiloons, I wanna know what you think of this..

You could literally lose days in the video section of Ted.com. Try it. You might learn something.

I need a hug :(
Heres a quick run down so you can see where my head is right now.

I've had a really rough week, working my ass off trying to make enough money to pay some of my bills. I've made a heap of small investments with my little bit of cash, and its grown but not by enough to really help me out.

Besides the constant money stress, This weekend I had to deal with two mates passing away suddenly and the whole flood of emotions that come with something that heavy. I made it through friday without cracking, despite being extremely overtired, emotional and in need of a good mate to break down with and just be able to vent.

I have issues. I bottle a LOT of things up, to the point where I seem cold, heartless and emotionless to some people. Im not, Im the opposite but I constantly repress my pain and anger in a really unhealthy way that's going to eventually kill me on the inside. I need somebody I trust, someone that really knows me to be with me and help me unload my grief/rage in small, controlled bursts, or else I feel like im going to do something really stupid one day that I cant undo.

Fast forward to friday night: I spent the day running all over brisbane busting my ass trying to make some money so I could afford to drink the pain away later on. I finally get all the cash I need together at about 8pm friday and start the next huge mission to get all the way to the inner city to spend time with my girlfriend (Who I'd been dying to see for ages, and really needed to talk to)..

All I wanted was a hug at the door, and to go lay down and just brain dump and cry because I hadn't had any privacy for weeks. All I got was a grunt at the door, bitched at for being late, and then she goes and lays in bed, chucks a movie on and completely ignores me. No matter what I did or said I'd get the same fake-polite reponse from the one person that I thought was in love with me..

Then she got a phone call from her fuckbuddy, and sat and talked to him in front of me about how bored she is, and how bad she wants to go do something just to get away from me. This is right after ending all attempts at communication by repeating "Im completely exhausted, sick and tired and im going to sleep".
That hurt. A lot. :(

So she kicks me out onto the street at 1am with a $2 coin, no credit, no smokes and no way of getting anywhere, while she waited for her taxi off to fuck some random. This is after months of "Trust me", and really getting herself nestled deep in my brain and playing mind games. This skank even tried to make me get her pregnant and went on about marriage and shit. Not cool. If I sound bitter its because I am. I dont know how else to feel. Breaking up like this would have completely destroyed me if I was sane, emotionally balanced and in a good mood to begin with. But to have it happen on that day made me near suicidal.

Wandering the streets early morning in that frame of mind is not a good idea. I suppressed all the shit, grabbed my gear and wandered till I'd managed to find myself some smokes, cover from the rain and eventually even found a friendly ear to ramble with but all I wanted was to break down and bawl my eyes out..

I came home today for the first time in two weeks.
This is the first time I've been able to relax and sit down at relax and just exist alone for a bit without being hassled.. I finally have the privacy and a bed to pass out in and I just cant do it. I cant even make myself cry now, even though I have a constant feeling like my whole chest is being crushed by some massive pressure only I can feel. I look in the mirror and see my shell. The real me has withdrawn deep into my mind, and I cant talk to him anymore. I really dont think I'm ever going to be the same person again. Its like I've finally been broken, and I just want to barely survive alone and unhappy just to avoid the chance of this kind of hurt happening again..

Reading over this I feel really pathetic and emo, I just don't have the words to describe my thoughts and feelings as well as some can. I tried.

The point of the story was that if you talk to me in the near future I may not be all there for a while. Maybe for a long while. If I snap or skitz out, or dont take your problems seriously enough im sorry in advance. Please dont dump more issues on me and expect advice, I get this a lot and I cant deal with my own shit let alone yours. Just dont.

Looks like im gonna dissapear for a while

Things just keep getting worse..